Whenever Valentines day approaches, I get all introspective. It occurred to me that I have been single on Valentine's day since I have been an adult. Sure, sure... I have been "involved" around that time, but a committed relationship??? Nope. Not since high school. Does that make me a loser? Sometimes I think so.
I used to really hate V-Day at the old job. Sitting at that front desk, signing for all those other women's flowers... horrible. Sitting there wishing it was mine, knowing none would be. Now, at this job, I no longer have to sign for anyone's stupid flowers. But I still am single and still not getting my own flowers.
I wish I could stop whatever it is that I do to keep me single. I run away from love and attention until I no longer get it. Then I am angry that it's gone and no one is chasing me. That is truly ridiculous. I am ridiculous.
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