Monday, February 27, 2012

IT WILL NEVER GET BETTER

I AM SUFFOCATING ON MY DESPAIR.  NO ONE EVEN NOTICES.  NO ONE GIVES A DAMN.

THE ONLY THING I FEEL IS HOLLOW.  BUT THERE'S ANGER TOO.  I AM SO ANGRY.

I AM ANGRY THAT I AM TRAPPED IN THIS BODY.  I AM ANGRY THAT I AM TRAPPED IN THIS HOUSE.  I AM ANGRY THAT THIS MAN WILL NOT STOP TORTURING ME.

HOW DID HIS CHOICE BECOME MY FAULT?  HOW DID IT BECOME MY FAULT?  HOW DID IT BECOME MY FAULT?

HOW DID I BECOME SO INSIGNIFICANT THAT HE CAN CHOOSE HER AND NOT THINK ABOUT HOW IT WOULD KILL ME?

HOW DID I BECOME SO VALUELESS THAT HE EXPECTS ME TO SIT HERE WHILE HE LIVES HIS LIFE?

HOW DID I BECOME SO UNIMPORTANT THAT HE FORGOT ABOUT MY FEELINGS?

 HOW DID I LOSE SO MUCH TIME?

HOW COULD HE THROW ME ASIDE?

HOW COULD HE HURT ME SO DEEP AND THINK I WILL WAIT FOREVER FOR HIM TO STOP  HURTING ME?

HOW DO I STOP THIS CIRCUS?

WHY CAN'T I JUST RIP OUT MY HEART?  IT DOESN'T WORK ANYMORE.  ITS BROKEN AND WON'T EVER WORK RIGHT.

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